Faithless teaser. Subject to change

Faithless teaser: (Subject to change)

Jacob smiles, then says something totally unexpected: “Congratulations.” he nods in the direction of my ring.  I look down, smile: “Thank you.  But how…?”
He answers before I finish: “Jason told me.”
Of course he did.  He would want to rub it in Jacob’s face: “Right, of course.”  I smile, getting ready for the conversation to move on to work.  I take a long sip of my tea.
“He asked me to be his best man.”
I nearly choke on my tea: “What?” I blink as he continues.
“Yeah, did he not talk to you about it?” he feigns innocence.
“Ah, no, but we have not finalised anything yet.” We haven’t talked about anything yet.  This all only happened last night. I know Jason asked him, but he had to have refused. Right?
“Of course I said yes.  In a heart beat.” he reads my thoughts.
I frown: “Why would you agree to be the best man at my wedding?”
He simply smiles: “Because I was asked.”
“If you were asked to jump of a bridge, would you?” This is not happening, did he really agree to this? Did Jason really ask him to do this?
“If you were on the other side. Then yes.”
I lean forward,  clasp my hands, making sure that I have his full attention: “And what makes you think that I would be on the other side of the bridge waiting for you?”
His eyes glint as his smile fades: “One can hope.”
“There is no hope for you and me.  I love Jason. I always will.  You being apart of my wedding party is not going to change that.  You have no control over my heart.” it’s harsh yes, but it needs to be said.
“You have all of my heart.  You always have and always will. You have all of my love.”
I roll my eyes.  This is not the first time that he has declared his love to me: “It’s never been wanted and will never be returned.  Now, lets get back to work.”

The muse whispered in my ear

The muse whispered in my ear, she sways my thoughts, persuades my dreams
The muse whispered in my ear, she showed me what I could be
She showed me that I could float above the sky and shine like a star
She whispers in my ear to tell me how great I can be.

If only I could believe in me as much as she believes in me
If only my fear was not greater than by belief
The muse whispers in my ear, she sways my thoughts, persuades my dream
She can see beyond my time, she can see how great I could be

She sings like an angel in my ear, she sings like an angel in the night
If only I could show her to the world, she could show them what I could be
If only I could show her to the world she could sway their thoughts of me

The muse whispers in my ear, she sways my thoughts, persuades my dreams
She is part of me, if only I did not hide her from the world, then they could see how great I could be
If only I did not lock her in a cage as soon as people saw she was me
If only I could set her free, she could show the world what is inside of me
She stays by my side, day and night, never leaving my sight

The muse she whispers in my ear, she sways my thoughts, persuades my dreams
She show me what I could be, if only I could believe in me as much as she believes in me
She sings like an angel in the night, she soars high above the sky, she shines bright in the dark of night.
If only my fear was not stronger than my belief, I could be what I am meant to be

She is part of me, if only I could free her from the cage that she sits patiently
If only I could show her to the world, she could show them what I could be
She could sway their hearts, persuade their minds

The muse she whispers in my ear, sways my thoughts persuades my dreams.
The muse she is part of me. She is me.

by Emma Carolan

Copyright Ireland Emma Carolan 2014

When the River flows

When there is a river in your heart that cannot be stopped
Let the river flow to a natural end let it flow through your soul
Let the river show you the path to follow

When there is a river in your heart that cannot be stopped
Follow the flow, let it guide your soul
Let the river be your guide

When there is a river in your heart that cannot be stopped
Let the river flow through your soul
Let it show you what you can be
Let it show you what you can do

When there is a river that flows in your heart don’t let it stop
Let the river flow never stop what the heart needs
Never stop what the heart needs
Never let go of your soul, keep it safe

When there is a river in your heart, let the flow be your guiding light
Let the river be who you are. Follow the flow, follow the flow
What would you do if the river never flowed through your heart
What would you do if you never had a guide for your soul

When there is a river that flows through your heart
Never create a damn to stop the river from flowing
Where it needs to go, keep the flow natural
Let it go where it needs to flow

The river will flow the way it needs to go, don’t stop the flow
When there is a river in your heart that cannot be stopped
Don’t even try to stop it.

 

By Emma Carolan

 

Copyrighted Ireland Emma Carolan 2014